This year I turned 50. Cinquante anni. Now what ?

Sunday, October 8th, 2006. It appears that I have been on a trajectory into chaos. I started my early adult years with a general idea of where I was going. I am still going, but I never anticipated the hundreds, if not thousands, of forks in the road. With each choice I veered left or right and my straight line pathway became a spiraling zig-zagging journey. My Myriad. I want to say, "how the fuck did I get here?", but I know how, I just can't believe it.